She said, “I need to talk to you !”
And he never did.
He reminisced. Each time she tried to share her feelings he pushed her away. Every time she cried in front of him, he was pissed off. Each time she said that she needed him with her, he disappeared.
He shouts on her , insults her but she never turned away…. she threw her self respect far away for him….And he use all his self respect and ego against her. Whenever they had a fight, he never apologized and talked to her first. And every time she made him realize that after talking and resolving the fight by apologizing first.
Love of Human
Sacrificed Self respect
He never knew through how much pain she has to go through to keep poking him with texts and call when she knew he don’t care. She knew he won’t reply but still she kept staring at the screen for a long time and then burst into tears.
“I Love you”
“I Love you too”
These were the words that begun and end there conversation…..and which were the only words to say when they had nothing else left to say to each other…..and these were the words he kept saying to her almost a hundred times a day……
And he recalled, He was not there for her in her most miserable times….. She stopped sharing her pain because she wanted him in her life.
Tears were dropping by his eyes…one by one…..and he was staring in the air…..
He recalled the texts she left for her in these days….She said she wanted to talk to him but he was angry…He was taking a break from her…He never replied….He never talked to her……..He needed time.
He never knew time is a thing no one can have. It doesn’t breathe but it dies.
She shared her feelings once again this time and like always…..He turned his back on her. He stopped talking…He needed time. She kept talking….. She needed him.
But she had no time left…….
He wiped away his tears , put that red flower on her fresh grave and whispered , ” I Love you and I knew you would wait for me” .
Haunting regrets were all he was left with.
* P.S Adrift : No, this is not FOR you…. This is ABOUT me. Couldn’t come up with anything better in this misery.