Meet me…..a very ordinary girl :) So ordinary that a piece of sand is worth than me… Yes this is me !! People say I am complicated…I say life is complicated and one who starts discovering its realities becomes complicated… I have a rainbow of moods inside me. Sometimes when I am happy…. really happy from inside (although it happens rarely) I talk and talk and laugh and laugh….loud and with my eyes …. and when I am sad….I cry, I scream out loud with a pillow on my face, I hit my hand with a wall sometimes….This is all when I am alone and with people I wear a cover on my face I smile at them laugh with them and sometimes put my head down, remove that mask, cry a little, wipe out my tears and wear that mask again ! I hide things with my smiles….I collect courage at night to face people and I use it at the day time ! People never know what is happening inside me or what I am thinking or feeling….even my eyes look normal even after hours of crying…this is a blessing though :) And…..normally I feel empty from inside…lifeless !! With no particular aim in my life. My parents have never felt proud because of me….even if I try hard….

I love my family My mama daddy and three brothers…. And I always prefer praying for them instead of me…They are my everything after Allah !! And I treasure my relationship with Allah more than anything.

I may be complicated and broken, but I am a regular girl with same feelings and emotions. I behave decent In public and people say I am mature but I know I am not…I would never be !! I understand life and pain…I am familiar with the realities of life very much. I have experienced ‘life’ at the age of 20. Girls at my age are full of small wishes and happiness but I don’t have any left with me.

I have a special theory about Love. Yes love…the most complicated thing ever. I know the core of it….I know the theory of it !!

Yes I am depressed and I would have made you depressed too with all this….:) Sorry for that !!

I am not a good writer but I like writing because I don’t speak too much and can’t express what is inside me by speaking. People ask me why do you speak so little….and I answer because I don’t have words to speak….This is in my nature and I have never tried to change it. I feel more comfortable writing things than speaking.

Enough about me I guess :) You must be hating me already…..

And about this blog…….As you are familiar with my rainbow mood now I can’t write specifically….So In this blog you will find things on every topic depending on my mood I will write :)

Tell me your thoughts after reading about me….Am I really out of the world and mad ?

Leave a comment


  1. Well white pearl. i want to know your name 🙂 i loved reading about you. mashAllah you are quite talented one 🙂 i am really inspired from you.you are unique and i really love this nature of yours. i loved your write ups. keep it up !!

    • Lol my name is Lala Rukh ! Thank you so so very much for saying me talent (Though I am not 😉 ) and for saying you are inspired…This is really something big ! I am so happy to have you thank you so much 🙂 I am honored ! You are great 🙂 Love you xx

  2. This was like reading a description of myself (well maybe except for the life experiences). So I guess that means either no, you’re not mad, or we both are. 😉
    Thanks for the comment on my blog! I’m excited to explore yours 🙂

    • Oh well either way it would be good to have a company with me 😉 But life experiences have really a great great impact…..So I guess don’t worry you are not mad 😛 It would be an honor for me if you explore mine. Thank you so much for the comment and visit ! I wish you keep visiting always 🙂 Love xx

  3. no you are not mad.. you are special 😉

  4. Mash’Allah, you are a very interesting person and you should be proud of it! 🙂

    • Thank you so very Much ! Your comments were lying in my spam folder, I don’t know the reason why 😦 Just read them ! Thanks 🙂

  5. No, you’re not mad, you’re a very sensitive person, who has to learn to deal with life and emotions. Writing is good thing to express yourself. There’s nothing wrong with not speaking much, there are a lot people who talk much and say nothing…. Granny and I hope you’ll overcome your depression, White Pearl, she’s struggling her whole life with it, so she knows how hard it can be sometimes, but I’ll bring you regularly some Pawkisses and hope they will help :)Thank you for following our blog, take care 🙂

    • Thank you so much Granny and You for taking out time and reading my writing here 🙂 Thanks for supporting me…..Yes I am sensitive but I am really confused in dealing with my emotions and feelings…. Well I hope this too and I hope Granny depression fades away too ! I would love your pawkisses They are really really sweeeet 🙂 Thank you lots ! Love you both so much 🙂 xx

  6. You have a beautiful blog site. Thank you for stopping by today. I hope to see you again soon.

  7. VelaneDeBeaute

     /  August 7, 2013

    Hey there,
    I nominated you for the *Shine-On Blog Award* 😀 Feel free to collect it from here! 😉

  8. Such a simple and spontaneous introduction can only come from a lovely human being!
    Good to be here! 🙂

    • And Lovely human beings can appreciate it ! 🙂 Thank you so much ! I am glad you felt good to be here 😉 Welcome you here and I hope you will keep visiting 🙂 xx

  9. Thank you for following my blog and leading me to yours, I like what I’ve read so far – looking forward to reading more! 🙂 x

  10. A nice read, I must say. As if you are sitting in front of your reader and sharing your say, that’s a supreme quality of a good writer. By the way, why and how do you discern that your parents are not proud of you? Also, I would like to know the theory of love you mentioned above. 🙂

  11. You seem like a pretty special person to me 🙂 everything on this blog tells me so.
    Clicked the follow button with in seconds 🙂
    P.S.Eid Mubarak 🙂

    • Ha ha your comment is the one nice thing happened to me whole day 😉 Thank you so much !
      I am happy you liked my blog and pressed the button lol 😛
      Eid Mubarik to you too and many many warm wishes and Love !
      P.S Keep visiting 😀

  12. starlight

     /  August 10, 2013

    My own theory on love, is that all humans either consciously or unconsciously look for love! We usually look for it in activities we do, hobbies, interests but mostly usually romantic love – when this is working properly we’re exchanging bit’s of love energy through the heart chakra! But really this is a poor substitute for ‘real love’. Real love is the type of love not many people know about! It’s when you advance energetically and the heart chakra open’s out fully, it becomes a gateway or open door for god’s higher frequency love energy to permanently flow out of your heart, and it can go into others to make them feel better – all the time it’s flowing through your own body to make you peaceful, fully accepted and happy 🙂

    I’m not far enough in my meditations to get this full effect but it’s slowly starting to happen! I’m working towards my own ‘answer’, because everything else failed so badly!

    Sorry for the ‘esoteric’ view on this, but I truly believe it!



    • Oh I just Love your theory It is amazing ! You know I have more or less the same thing in mind you just gave it different unique words and described it more beautifully ! Love it really 🙂 How can you speak so sweet 🙂
      Meditations may do good but true love can be achieved more without it too !
      You know answer is always the same…..It is just that people use different words according to their minds and some people are able to understand it and some are not…. All ways point to the same destination after all 🙂
      I love this 🙂
      Thank you so very much for the great comment !
      Love you so much 🙂 xx

      • starlight

         /  August 11, 2013

        I’ve heard some people are definitely getting these heart-openings and soul development at this time without doing ANY mediation! I’ve read a lot about how our whole soul group (humanity) is planned to start this process from a higher level. I’ve personally felt these blasts of pure white energy come through my crown periodically since march! 🙂 So I think even if things are chaotic now (which they certainly are!!!) there is the biggest chance they will change for the better (I mostly use meditations to speed up my process! but is not the only way).

        Anyway very nice to chat to you :-)!!

      • Oh it is so lovely to meet you too ! 🙂
        Yes You are right…. And why since March ? Something special in March ?
        You know you are tempting me so much to try Meditation ……
        Can you suggest something where I can learn the ways to do it ?
        And thank you so very much for all the nice words 🙂 Love you !

      • starlight

         /  August 11, 2013

        Yeah. What I did was tai chi for 8 months but it was weak, then I did the orbit practice and that was good at raising kundalini but it mostly works on the physical bodies healing so it takes a long time to reach the emotional/mental healing.

        Let me say that when I started meditation, I could only do it for 5-10 minutes per day! This is because I was so impatient! It progressed to much longer, later on once I got used to it – because the feeling of the energy was so calming and blissful 🙂

        Two things I did in particular which dramatically raised my intuition and do not require much time to start are getting attuned to Reiki (levels 1, 2 and 3), and pracitcing maitreya shengong (a type of focus on a mantra which connects you directly up to shen energy, which is a very soft, gentle high frequency energy).

        After you get attuned to Reiki (I got it done in real life, but a friend got it done from a free video online – which I then tried and felt a huge benefit from! I’ve tested this with several people and the general result is that yes – the free online video’s DO work! If you ask me personally HOW they work? It’s because the Reiki master isn’t doing the attunement, they’re just allowing themselves to be a channel for energies. Positive spirits who are affiliated with Reiki energy actually do the attunements – so they can do them over any distance, any time. They help send energy to open your crown chakra to more life energy, so it’s a method of grace).

        The maitreya shengong practice can be as simple as this: Sit peacefully for a few minutes and imagine connecting to the core of earth and the core of heaven above the head. Then mentally (as in, think the mantra, no need to say it out loud) ‘Ohm namah shivaya’, you think this over and over again for as little as 5 minutes and after a couple of minutes a soft, peaceful light should get send into your body. I focus inside my solar plexus, abdomen or heart while chanting and the energy gathers there.

        I’ll find two links to see if you feel like trying it because it’s really easy and does not take a lot of time.

        Okay – try not to judge this guy or his website! He’s a kind person who has put this up for free and I can verify that it works.




        My friend did these all at once and then complained of pressure and pain in his crown chakra because it was being opened too fast! Use your own intuition to work through these at your own pace. Do just level 1 when you feel ready and it takes 5 minutes, then relax laying down for 30 mins after. Do the other ones whenever you feel ready. After this, read online on how to send the energies into your body through the hands because the energy auto-heals physical and emotional problems.

        Now the next thing is maitreya shengong. I only know one guy online who sold me this product and he’s not well known, I am the only person I know of who has put it up free! (but there might be more).

        I have a couple of blogs. I pasted the images here:


        Look at the 15 images ‘Maitreya shengong (use mantra to build shen energy, connect to unity and open the heart center):’ or Just do my ‘short hand version’ written below the images 🙂

        These two, easy to learn methods are my recommendation for anyone looking to start self healing and they don’t require much time or effort to do! Of course…even better – they are free !

        I hope this helps, try it at your own pace.

        Jamie~ 🙂

      • Oh Well First of all thanks so so much for all this !
        It was so interesting reading about your experience really I want to do it now By myself….
        Just had a look at the links and the post you mentioned.. Looks like I would Learn a lot from them !
        I would sure try it…And then tell you what happened…..I hope something good happens lol I can’t afford anything bad 😛
        There are so many types…..You just gave me much knowledge Thank you so very much for that !
        Love you and Wish me luck for Meditation 🙂 I am excited 😉

      • starlight

         /  August 11, 2013

        Yeah I agree! There are so many times I forget it looks ‘overwhelming’ to any person starting up.

        The only reason I coped with it is because I’ve been doing this gradually for above 3 years – being slowly introduced to better methods!

        This is on another topic but, on your ‘about page’ you said at the bottom the readers will probably ‘hate you’ for saying negative stuff, right? This sort of broke my heart, because we definitely don’t hate you 😮

        What I thought was that maybe this was an inner reflection of how you felt about yourself? That you often hated yourself, maybe for being ‘weak’ or not coping?

        Let me say, any human with a lot of trauma blockages will feel really terrible. It has nothing to do with being ‘weak’ or being a weak soul or something like that! I know from the healing process, if someone says to me I’m stronger because I’m more peaceful now and have resolved issues, I’d say it’s just the state of my aura thanks for the training!

        I used to have 100’s of thoughts per day in my head which told me ‘you’re no good!’ ‘You don’t deserve anything.’ ‘You don’t have any power, everything is useless.’ and ‘You don’t even deserve to be happy, you’re a bad person!’.

        These started to disappear before my eyes when I did EFT on my negative emotions.

        NOW after a couple years…I mostly either feel powerful inner peace, or – like now – a glowing white love trying to expand out of my heart. It feels SO accepting, that it even accepts everybodies ‘darkness’. As it flows out of my heart…I just feel like hugging people and wanting to make them feel better with compassion.

        While it flows out, I just feel complete acceptance of myself! It’s the most deep feeling.

        Who would have imagined someone like me could feel this way, from where I came from?

        aha, sorry once again for typing so much 🙂

      • Ha ha lol you seems to have a real typing speed lol 😛
        I love your comments and don’t ever be sorry for the long ones okaay 🙂
        Thre years is a very long time I guess…Now I am guessing why you are so sure about this thing 🙂
        I said that because people usually have no interest in other people’s sad stories or emotions….
        I am sorry If I broke your heart 😦
        Yes this is my inner reflection and I use to have the same thoughts many times in a day what you had…..I am happy you have managed to get rid of them ! I hope I may too one day !
        It just feels so appealing with what you are saying….
        Lol Yes sometimes Miracles happens 😉
        Love you for sharing such great experiences with me ! And Really Thank you so very very much ! Honored 🙂 Love xx

      • starlight

         /  August 13, 2013

        Aha, no it’s okay all I meant was I felt bad for you 🙂 in a caring sort of way!

        ‘…..I am happy you have managed to get rid of them ! I hope I may too one day !’ – you can! Keep trying things and searching for things.

        No, it’s good to talk both ways – thanks!

        much love~


      • Love you too 🙂 And Thanks so much !

      • starlight

         /  August 15, 2013

        I can tell you some of my grand goals…but I lack the full confidence to carry them out yet! And I don’t have enough experience.

        I want to spend the next decade investigating energy healing methods and meditations, until I am really good at it, then I want to somehow help teach others to heal and improve themselves!

        I do really want to help others, but I feel we need to help ourselves first or else it becomes difficult. So I have quite a lofty goal (but I truly believe – attainable) which I am working towards, when it’s got far enough I’ll start to focus on helping others more (and my intuition by that stage should be so advanced that I’ll know what others need from me as soon as I meet them – the connection to Unity consciousness by that level should be this strong. I’ve already made a lot of mistakes by trying to get people to do this or that, when they weren’t ready or it wasn’t right for them at that time, slowly…I learn!).

        *hugs* 🙂

        You’re one of the first people who has shown ANY interest in practising any of these methods! Don’t let my enthusiasm for them daunt you, you can do just one thing if it feels right for you – or none at all! But I like to put it this way: If we assume some methods or ways out there truly HELP heal or improve situations – that something like this exists somewhere…it seems to make sense we should try a bunch of things out until we get it right!

        Anyway, peace! And keep well~


      • Lol yes as it is said God helps those who helps themselves 😉
        The energy healing meditations sounds good ! Don’t know exactly what it is but looks like a good thing.
        And yes you should teach others you describe everything in detail I am sure your readers would benefit a lot from you !
        I will sure start it in two days or so and will tell you my progress 🙂
        Stay connected 🙂

      • starlight

         /  August 15, 2013

        And I enjoy talking to you, I don’t talk to many people on word press, only a couple of people.

      • Aww this is such a pleasure to hear ! Thank you so much I too feel like I am talking to a friend with you 🙂 Love you !

      • starlight

         /  August 15, 2013


      • starlight

         /  August 15, 2013

        Oh and another thing. If you think about it for a moment…well, I’ve certainly noticed it, the ‘normal’ state of the human’s emotional self is one of either visibly suffering (emotional conflicts with others/arguments/anger and conflict) or even more commonly ‘buried pain’, for example those who are good at hiding their suffering.

        Think about how many people compliment each other or express love compared to those who find it easy to criticise? Now I know there are some really great people out there who are nice 🙂 But most people I have met in my lifetime seem almost incapable of compliment (unless they’re sweet talking to try and manipulate to get what they want).

        We – as a collective – are buried under a mountain of continuous struggles, if it isn’t physical then it’s emotional.

        I have no trust in the media, the control structure, the higher ups in charge. It’s designed to control us and keep us in line.

        If you read up more about it, it gets pretty disturbing!

        But I won’t go there right now.

        The point I’m trying to make is, if you were to ask ‘if certain methods are so great…why aren’t they well known already?’ The answer to that is the things which work will slowly start to spread ONLINE! Only online because we’re (at least currently) allowed to spread our freedom of speech online. Who exactly controls the media, the TV and news reports? It’s a select few, not the majority.

        So what I mean is, all the cool stuff I’ve ever found is rare.

        I know in my heart that if everyone followed spiritual practices we wouldn’t need doctors (still need hospitals for emergencies), okay perhaps that’s a sweeping statement. I mean to say that if it’s commonly known about, it probably doesn’t work too well, or else humans collectively wouldn’t be in this mess.

        Anyway I’m ranting so I’ll stop for now.




      • Yes I totally get the idea and I am aware of it ! And there is another thing….The things which show their effect somehow slowly , people are reluctant to try them ! They most of the time need instant treatments that is why many productive things don’t become popular !
        I hope everyone gets a thing matching his personality which helps him to reduce his sufferings 🙂
        Cheers ! Love xx

  13. Rana Usman

     /  August 10, 2013

    Dear Lalarukh, Thank you very much for stopping by at my blog and leaving your precious comment.

  14. Chandni Lahoti

     /  August 12, 2013

    Hi! I look forward to your beautiful posts and true appreciate your style of writing! I have nominated you for the Versatile Blogger award. Please have a look here – http://wp.me/BY9D! Love 🙂

    • Oh This is really a surprise ! Thank you so very very much for the Nomination ! It really means a lot ! Thanks 🙂 Love xx 🙂

  15. You have a great Blog i am really happy for being here 🙂

  16. Keep writing. I believe it will lead you to your dreams as it did for me. My childhood was very dark. Yet I survived that and much more. Keep writing. As you do, you will discover your dreams and they can come true. Mine did and I am living them!

    • Thank you so very much for the uplifting words ! Your wishes really means a lot to me. Yes I am doing the same and I am learning to live day by day through this blog and writing ! Really loving it and I won’t stop InshAllah 🙂 I am happy you succeeded in what you wanted 🙂 Best wishes and Love xx Keep visiting 🙂

  17. Love your enthusiasum. I am searching for people like you. Love the blog and Happy Independence Day. Oh, a question: are you in pakistan??
    thanks for liking my blog.

  18. Love yourself the way you are
    Everyone is different and special and unique

  19. “Girls at my age are full of small wishes and happiess but I don’t have any left with me.”

    They, wishes, never die and never leave.
    It’s not a choice for us to leave them. What we can choose though is wheter or not to carry them with us or not. Very thin line between the two lines above, but two things with verrry different meaning.

    Not quite sure which one of em you actually meant. :p

    • Yes I agree what you just said…. Wishes probably never fades out…. It all depends on our preferences… What we want with us and what we don’t ! Or what we are willing to do….For someone other ! I mean Allah Tala….
      Thank you 🙂
      Lol I am not sure either 😛 So it is better not to elaborate lol 😀
      Thank you so much for the comment 🙂

      • Umer Sayyam

         /  August 17, 2013

        Our preferences are basically shaped by what we go the through and so does our wills. But we dont always go through what we planned. But, that doesn’t mean that we should change our goal.
        We know what we want from the very beginning. That does not change. What changes is how to get there.
        I wrote this article couple of weeks ago, Life and Willingness to Conquer .

        Ore rahi bat elaborate karnay ki to I think you do need to. To yourself. When things are clear on your end, you can see a lot of things clear and better on the other end.

        I just realized that it’ll be a good topic to write about. Will give it a try in my next post. Lol

        Cheers! 🙂

      • First of all I am glad you find a new topic for your post lol I would sure read it 😉
        Yes I agree to each of your thought…. You know what we plans never works, What Allah plans always work ! So instead of planning just try to absorb whatever future gives you ! You ma be right…But I never knew what I wanted from the beginning…. I came to know it when I ‘experienced’ life ! My goals changed too !
        Just going to read this article of yours 🙂
        And I guess I have elaborated it already to myself ! If not , still I know deep down all the explanations…I just don’t have courage to face it I guess ….
        Well Thank you so much for the Great philosophical comment 😉 You seems to be a good philosopher too 😛
        Would Love to hear more from you 🙂
        Thank you !
        Cheers yaaay 😀

  20. Haha no! Although I might not be the best judge on that 🙂
    Madness to me is intriguing. If we were all perfect and sane, life would be so boring now wouldn’t it be 😀 It’s really nice to meet you sister! Loving your blog ❤ Masha'allah keep up the good work!

    • I agree to this 100% lol 😀 Life would indeed be boring without a touch of madness 😉 I really loved meeting with you . o glad to find you 🙂 Thank you for the visit and for the valuable comments sister. I love you 🙂

  21. Hi dear.As always i greet you with hugs,love,care and blessings.
    I have a surprise for you in early morning.
    Check it out.

  22. Such a lovely read, I have just fallen in love with it,
    Stay blessed,
    Cheers! 🙂

  23. Tayyeba

     /  August 18, 2013

    Hey. I nominated you for the Shine On Award. You can collect it from here:-

  24. haha thanks! I just found it. who knows when I’ll be actaully going to sit and write about it. Need to get that on track and be lil more consistent with my posts.

    Yes, Indeed, he is The Best planner. Does and plans what we couldn’t even think of.
    “absorb whatever future gives you”
    you cannot absorb that is never meant for you. you can face it tho, we all do. but to absorb, you need to open your self and let it embrace you, get into you. and that doesn’t happen unless you reall want to. ‘whatever’ is never what you want. Plan is nothing – planning is everyting.

    everyone knows what they want from the very begining. some of us just don’t know what marks that begining. and guess what, interestingly, it has no begining. we make our own beginng how we want, when we want, where we want.

    “You seems to be a good philosopher too :P”, Too? And who is the other one?? haha jk 😉

    and I’m glad you like the my post. 🙂 I left reply, not quite sure if you were notified because I’m still in the process to code the notification/trackbaks. please confirm.

    alrighttty! have a good one! 🙂

    • Hey ! Nice to hear from you again 😉 You should sit down and write a post…. You are a really good writer !
      Yes, you may be right….you never absorb what you don’t want for yourself….But yo have to live with it all your life and it is attached to you , a part of who you are ! No matter how hard you want to get rid of it 🙂
      No I told you, I never knew what I wanted…My priorities , my plans, my thinking, my approach, everything was changed or you can say turned over at 360 degrees at a moment !!
      Lol I was not talking about myself…I have found so many people here with so deep philosophical minds 😉 I was talking about them .
      Yes I didn’t get any notification, I would go and check 🙂
      And Thank you so much 🙂 It is really lovely meeting you 🙂 xx

      • Heyy! yea, before school starts, I will. Than as the new semester starts, it’s going to be hectic for couple of days.
        you’re absolutely right that when it’s attached to you it becomes a part of your life. But, do you have to ‘live’ with it, is a choice on you. (really hard one, but it is). Whatever is the past, you sure cannot get rid off it. and you should not.
        if the past is pleasant, there’s nothing to talk about. fortunate to have pleasant memories.
        but, if the past experience is that you learned something, you did what you could..hey, you have nothing to loose your sleep over.
        if you’re satisfied, nothing else matters. but you can only be satisfied if your willing was present in what you did, not when its just imposed on you.
        although, you can be satisfied when its just given to you or imposed on you or , but we’re not one of those people. wo to peero-faqiron ka sheva hay.

        things happen, good or bad(according to us). but as we were talking about earlier that He’s the best planner. 🙂

        haha people are great. different faces, different ideas, different approaches. fascinating to greet new people. i was just teasing. tho, it couldn’t have been wrong if you’d your name. 🙂

        sorry i’d you check it. building it from scratch, so it’s gonna take a while to get what I want. ;/

        Same here! 😀

    • Ooopsss Yes I missed it 😛 Sorry !
      Yes I can understand this stuff…. Oh So you are in school…you are a kid 😛 Which class ?
      Yes some people are brave enough to accept the unwanted present and future and getting rid of past….. But some people like me, can’t ! Even by trying hard……
      You don’t know me…….I SHOULD get rid of it !! But I can’t….
      I am nit satisfied…I am not contented……These are the words out of my dictionary !
      We can try to adopt the peerun faqeerun ka sheva at least ….. No ?
      I guess it is the best way…..
      Yes verily He is the best planner after all 🙂
      Well I guess it would be wrong…I am not a philosopher 😛 I would have invented a new Pakistan till now If I would be one 😉
      Best wishes for your school kid 😉 😛

  25. Thank you for dropping by my blog and the “Like” of my post!

  26. Whoa! Looks like you’re an avid blogger mashaAllah. And, you got a cupboard full of blogging awards, mashaAllah!!!! 🙂

    • Oh Yes The readers are all lovely actually MASHALLAH 🙂 I am nothing….Thank you so much For visiting here 😉 I hope you will visit more 🙂 Love and blessings 🙂

  27. naveedashaikh

     /  August 21, 2013

    You are not mad at all. Even I don’t understand folks call them. Everybody live their life according to what they had been inherited financially, socially, mentally and genetically of course. Everyone is special, so are you. You write so well ma sha Allah. You controlled your feelings whereas I can’t when I am writing. Over the topic of Allah and love, you balanced it so well. Difficult if you are a writer of your soul.

    Stay blessed 🙂 !

    • Well thank you for all the comments which made me feel yes someone understands me 🙂 Well yes everyone live his life according to his own ways…. I don’t know I would be able to call myself special though 🙂
      Thank you so so much…For all the Love 🙂 I loved your thoughts…. I am not the writer of my soul…I would leave the creator to write my soul…Let Him handle this task 🙂
      Love you….and don’t worry you would control your feelings one day 😉
      It was lovely meeting you…Stay in touch 🙂 xx

  28. Hi there. I just wanted to take a moment to thank you for stopping by my blog. 🙂

  29. There are some powerful images here and a strong, ominous rhythm.

  30. hey creative!
    welcome to the stellar!
    you can express your self one of the main characteristics of a writer!
    keep up the great work!

  31. Hi, I finally did write one, not about that topic, but something else. Here, The Sky is Covered With All Dark Clouds/

    Comment notification should be working now, and I guess you missed this comment earlier :p

    • Heyy Just replied to the previous comment….I missed it earlier…
      And Thank God you came up with something 😛
      Just going to check it !

  32. not a biggy!
    Yea, tryna hang in school as long as I can ..haha I guess, I can be called a kid, a grown up kid. :p going for bachelors in computer science.
    oh first of all, by ‘you’ I didn’t mean you specifically.
    second, I was thinking of a different approach of why one shouldn’t forget their past. If they had gone through something, that they don’t wana go through again, they wouldn’t do that again. so that’s what I meant by not forgetting. common sense tho, right? but some of us tend to fall in for the something, again.
    there are literally 7B+ people, and I highly doubt if anyone knows anyone.
    we can try, sure. who really are they? first, gotta find out that. they chose different path or may be they were just given that path? Acceptance, again. Well, that’s another topic tho.
    haha ap to serious hi le gaye. 😉
    ah thanks, quite excited for school to start. Although, doesn’t happen usually. :p

    • Grown up kids are more dangerous than normal kids 😉
      Ahan computer science….Nice nice…..I have done computer sciences too so you can talk to me for any help 🙂
      Then you should have clear the fact that you meant to remember lessons learnt from the past and not the past itself !
      Common sense…Well it is hard to find at present as it is hard to find a ‘human’ 🙂
      What if I know who are they….. What if I am given the same path but I have no one to hold my hand and take me to the destination….What if I am struggling for the same thing by myself and that is why I feel tensed always…..
      What if I tried to choose this path after it was given to me……
      Lol nae tention nae lu me serious nae hoti 😛
      Well best of luck for your school !

  33. inJannah

     /  August 23, 2013

    You don’t need to approve this comment, its not for others, its just for you. I don’t know you but I know from your blog that you’re a Muslimah. Sister what you have written in “About” is not something praiseworthy, I don’t hate you don’t take it otherwise, I care for you. Those who always praise you are hiding your mistakes, we must remain in a continuous hunt of our mistakes and we should be grateful if somebody hunts them for you. Sister you’re in a serious need of a practicing Muslim counselor. You’re not the first person who is going through this but there are other and there were other who are free of this type of behavior and feeling. I recommend you to be in touch with Yasmin Mogahed, watch her video sessions and read her one of the inspiring post which is helping thousands (“Attachment (Emptying a Vessel) By Yasmin Mogahed”). Although she uploads her videos online which is not Islaamic but since you’re a girl, its permissible for you to watch them. I care for you so I pointed out this thing to you, not that I hate you because of what you’re going through. Don’t misunderstand and don’t take it otherwise. May Allaah help you!

    • First of all I don’t find anything in this comment which I won’t approve…..
      Secondly I know not a single word I wrote here is praise worthy…..I really am thankful to you for caring for me 🙂
      I don’t know what made you think I want praise…… I don’t !
      The people here don’t praise me…They praise what I write…. Without judging me on the basis of it…..
      If a person writes stories about a bad girl this doesn’t make her bad…..I guess ?
      And yes I know I am nothing and may be the worst Muslim…and I know I need Muslim counselor….I am in search of people who could answer my questions…for so long…But I never found anyone !
      Some Molvi says one thing about something and the other says another thing….Who to believe ?
      I would love to listen to the personality you are recommending…It would be nice if you give me a link….
      Thank you so very much for all this and for caring for me I loved this attitude of your’s and don’t ever think I found it bad…..I would never misunderstand intentionally InshAllah !
      Thank you 🙂 Remember me in your prayers please ! Love xx

  34. White Pearl, I appreciate so much the openness and courage that you express as you bear your soul forth. As you continue your journey, the truth will not be withheld from you. Thank you for your lovely presence on my blog.

    • Thank you so much sweet heart I felt lovely meeting you here ! I hope what you said comes true soon 🙂 I love you and please keep visiting here ! I need you….. Love you so very much ! 🙂

  35. First of all NO. No you are not mad. I am quite like you. I meant the depressive part and not being very talkative. That’s why I started the blog in the first place. Anyway there are other like us. Some are extreme other are normal. I guess we are the extreme one. Its ok. Its good to be different.

    Second, you may think your parents not proud of you but what if they are just not expressive. Nothing is more important to parents than their kids.
    Just walk the right path and all will be well.
    I feel for you.
    I will pray for you.

    Last but not the you are a great writer. I love your writing skills and ideas. Keep it up. Who knows one day you be the greatest writer. And I am not just saying it I mean it.

    Read my poetry, you may understand me better.

    • Well it feels pleasant to find a person same like you are 😉 Though I wish for no one to be like me…..
      Yes I guess we are the extreme ones 🙂
      I know they are not proud of me because I can judge this with their words…..
      Thank you so much I just need your prayers 🙂 I pray for you too… After all we are the same 🙂
      Thank you so much…I am really honored to hear that you think I am a good writer…… And well this is big 🙂 Great writer seems like a real dream 😛
      Thank you so much….I really find your presence so pleasing…..I loved your words and I hope you will visit AGAIN TO SUPPORT ME 🙂
      Love you so very much 🙂 I am sure going to read your poetry and blog !

  36. Hey, I have nominated you for Very Inspiring Blogger Award.
    Check http://aak92.wordpress.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=3436&action=edit&message=6&postpost=v2

  37. Amanda Law

     /  August 26, 2013

    Keep writing, it’s the very best therapy. Things will get better, especially if you want them to. Lots of love xx

  38. Awesome blog! Very good layout and theme. And a very good intro. I think you are perfectly normal and a very good Earthling! Keep up the good work.

  39. Thank you so much for stopping by my blog White Pearl…so glad you did as you sound a lot like me!…with Allah as the center of my existence (at least trying to) and having so many theories of my own on Love..very important topics for me as well. Also noticed you’re a student of computer science, which is what I majored in too. Kind of like walking into my twin self…the sweet side of it 🙂 Putting your blog among my favorites, have a feeling I’d be here often! xoxo

    • First of all I am so glad I stumbled upon your blog…. You write very well ! And I am glad too I have found a person like me 🙂
      Oh well we have so many thing alike 😛 I hope you are not mad like me 😉
      Lol I am meeting a person with that many similarities the first time too ! I hope we will catch up often 🙂
      Thank you so very much for liking my blog ! Love you and I hope we will keep meeting 🙂
      Hugs xx

  40. within every ordinary person lives an extraordinary being… right under the nose… Thanks for dropping by my blog and liking my answers to Project O… Maybe we can be friends and enjoy each others journey… Barbara

    • Yes you are exactly right !
      I thank you too with all my heart for visiting back mine and I appreciate it ! Yes I would love to be friends with you dear lady 🙂 That would be more than awesome 🙂 Love you and Hugs xx

  41. Dear White Pearl,
    Thank you for stopping by and “liking” my post My Love.
    Your Friend,

  42. Interesting Blog, Specially the words of IQBAL in a post were inspiring. And i would like to add that its a positive thing to feel EMPTY because in that case you’ll strive for more. Keep cruising through life with a smile

    • Well I am glad you liked my blog 🙂
      Yes quotes of Iqbal are always inspiring …
      You are right…. you always strive for the things you don’t have !
      Thank you so much 🙂 It was pleasure meeting you ! Love xx

  43. I have been thinking…where’s food?

    • Lol May be I meant ‘Food for thought’ not food for tummy 😛
      Actually the caption of blog was random…I never knew what I would write about here that is why I chose the things I think about the most….. I guess now the food has gone in the background ! 😛

  44. Hey you are an amazing and very expressive writer.You have got an awesome blog here.Looking forward to discover more 🙂

  45. Hello, White Pearl. Thank you for reading my blog. After reading your about section, I wanted to give you a hug! I think you are not mad, crazy or out of your head in any way. I think that those who define normal are afraid to face their fears. I find you brave to talk about your painful struggles. You are talented as a writer; your poetry is expressive! Keep writing these beautiful pieces. You are amazing. I am praying for you!

    • Hello ! So sweet of you to feel about me in that way ! I am happy you just understood me. Your words matter a lot. Thank you so much ! I will keep writing 🙂 You are more than amazing. Thanks for the prayers and wishes. Best wishes and Love for you 🙂 xx

  46. Hi Lalrukh! I have nominated you for the ‘ Everyone Deserves an AWARD ‘. Please check the link http://mindlessinking.wordpress.com/2013/09/21/everyone-deserves-an-award/ …Happy Blogging! 🙂

    • Oh Thank you ! I am glad and honored and excited 😉 Love you ! I would sure accept it with a post very soon InshAllah 🙂 xx

  47. So sweet of u

  48. Hi,
    Congratulation! for all your success. my all best wishes with you keep do blogging and share you knowledge/posts with us through this.
    Really amazing blog.


    • Hi ! Thank you so much for your visit and your kind words ! They means a lot to me. I hope you will visit again and Read my writings ! Loved your presence here 🙂
      Thank you ! xx

  49. Dear White Pearl, You have been on my mind, and so I wanted to send you some joy today. Please pick up your bundles at: http://deepsouldiver.wordpress.com/about/bundles-of-joy/
    Love and light.

  1. When it rains, it pours… only in this case.. AWARDS :D | Chasing Yellow Cabs!

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