December…. A symbol of sadness and pain, quiet and peace, calmness and reticence. A symbol of unearned Love, unwanted desires and unanswered prayers. Mournful feelings of melancholy and gloom are embedded in its essence. Chilled winds full of woes an abyss….
Friedrich Nietzsche says
“When you stare into the abyss, it stares back at you”
December…. was never like this for me. I read thousands of quotes describing about its sad essence and many people discussing about its sorrowful qualities but I never believed them. It was like other months of the year for me until now….
When In the center of snow , I stand
See white snow falling on the dry land
When chilling winds give me shiver
Sadness prevailed, Tears do wither
I see myself lost in the winds and snow
And here I stand, with agony and woe
Both my best friends yet worst enemies
And here I stand, invisible and vanished
Like shadows vanishing with nights
Cold that makes our inside, cold !
Blood freezes inside veins, Lifeless heart
Pumps it hard but never succeeds
And I am left with the effortless efforts and
unanswered questions, question marks
When every way I see is not for me
And I want to move, without ways , in abyss
White Darkness; The only thing I see
Rays of hope fainted , I am abandoned
In the horrifying cage of December…..
Empty handed I stand, Lifeless I grow
A soul-less statue I form, lost in the glow
Of December, The month of gloom and abyss…..
“He had been walking for a long time, ever since dark in fact, and dark falls soon in December.”
(“The Old House In Vauxhall Walk”)