What should I call myself ? Huh !
A loser ? A psycho patient ? A dumb idiot ? Sorry I can’t come up with a better word.
My life has been a total disaster…..I have been living in the house of my own imaginations.
All my life I thought I shouldn’t show my tears to my parents…I shouldn’t share my problems with the….They should never see me crying….. Why ? Because I thought they might get worried….I thought I have never given them any happiness so I have no right to give them pain because of me.
And today I am laughing at my thoughts. I am making fun of my own self…..
I was lying on my bed….crying and sobbing…..Reason was my parents.
They stood in the the door way…watching me. And then they left. They didn’t even say a word. They didn’t even ask why am I crying.
They didn’t even thought I am dying for their one sentence of sympathy and care.
I am witnessing the pile of my imagination about my parents scattered on the ground right now….. And I am laughing…..
Happiness means smiling and laughing….Yeah?
So I am happy……I am so happy.
Because I know now, my parents don’t give a F*** !!
I was wandering in a black hole with no start or end and suddenly I am at the dead end !
(16th november 2013….A post written while crying and in extreme emotional imbalance)